Cindy Beall is a writer, speaker, and a mentor to women. She and her husband, Chris, speak openly about their difficult journey through Chris' infidelity and pornography addiction that nearly destroyed their marriage and ministry. Through God's grace they have inspired thousands of couples and have returned to full-time ministry where Chris serves as the Oklahoma City Campus Pastor at LifeChurch.tv. www.cindybe
It is highly unlikely that I would ever cheat on my husband because of what I've been through.
At least that is what most people think. But I know otherwise.
I know that one slight step off the narrow road I'm called to walk could lead me down a path of temptation and eventually regret. One disclosing conversation could start an unhealthy relationship with an old friend. One haughty I'm above such a sin mindset could bring about more devastation to my husband and sons than I believe I am capable of handling.
And if I'm being real honest with you...it scares the living daylights out of me.
Because I know me and I know that sometimes I feed my flesh and discard my spirit. Also because I have had too many discussions with people who winded up doing things they never imagined doing.
Like the young woman who just told her husband last week that she kissed another man and couldn't, wouldn't have dreamed that she'd ever done such a thing. She never planned on it.
Or the 55-year old husband, who ditched his wife for a younger woman, was always the picture of marital faithfulness. "He'd never do such a thing" his friends said about him.
While I don't believe I live a life of fear, I do believe I have a healthy, God-fearing attitude that will help me make choices now before I'm thrown into a circumstance that I didn't see coming. I am fully aware that when we fail to plan, we plan to fail. And trust me when I say this: I'm not planning to be unfaithful.
I'm planning not to.